Saturday, March 1, 2008
Take This Week And Shove It. :-)
Happy Birthday Cheryl Dee! I won’t tell people how old you are I’ll just give them the hint that your oldest daughter is collecting social security and lives on a diet of bran and ginko. Leaving this last week to go to Las Vegas for work was torture, easily the longest week of my life. It’s amazing how your perception of time changes as you get older (or in Susan’s case just “old”). Remember when you were a kid and the longest week of the year was the week before Christmas because of all the hype and excitement, or the week before Bear Lake because all good vacations, per the handbook on motherhood, must be used as blackmail to ensure a week worth of menial labor in order to have a spotless house. As I got older the weeks on “the mission” were the culprit, I swore oft that they would never end, and then there were the weeks of Basic Training which were eerily similar to mission weeks only your rear was being chewed up and handed to you 24/7. This last week out did them all. In hind sight I wish that I wouldn’t have gone but bills have to be paid. While flying back to SLC I was feeling sorry for myself that I had to be away from the hospital and I had to check myself. I started thinking about how long Charlie’s week had been and how many long weeks he has ahead of him. Charlie is trying so hard to get better and progress will be slow. I was a little discouraged that when I saw him after a week his status was basically unchanged. There is certain reality that comes with brain injuries like Charlie’s and that is the longer he goes w/o improvement the slower any future progress will be. So in order to maintain sanity I’m officially throwing time out the window. I’m no longer concerned about how long this has been going on or how long it will. My only concern is taking care of my little buddy, keeping him calm, making sure he’s not hurting and providing the best environment for him to heal. We will still watch and hope for small improvements but I’ve stopped caring about how long it will take.